OUR WORLD IS EMPTY WITHOUT YOU

Christopher,
As the years have gone and passed, time still stands still for us. The days are still the same we wait for your killers to be caught, and still nothing is new. We watch the news three times a day, waiting to hear that they have gotten killed or someone has taken their lives the way they took yours. Some day it will come, when they will meet their turn. 
Our life is not the same or ever will be, as it has changed drastically with you being gone. We feel as we have no life left to live. You took our happiness with you. Yet with all your brothers and sister & their family, and our grandchildren, we are full of life to follow with them, yet find it hard to keep going.
  We see your friends, and cousins moving on with thier lives and we wonder what your life would be today?
  I feel as if a knife is put through my heart when I go to the malls, and watch these young kids your age with their girlfriends, or wives and kids, and we will never see that side of your life son. How that hurts to know that we will never experience your kids, or your wife. Every time we turn around we feel so cheated.
As the Country song "Who you'd Be Today"? just hit right at home for us. It says it, just as we feel for you. 
  We miss every part of you being here time and time again. So many changes have taken place, and your Dad and I are getting older and tired of this life without you. At times I feel as if we have no more life left to keep going and fight for the justice that is due you and our family. They can not get away for the damage they did to you and our lives.
I don't want to leave this world not knowing how or why they murdered you. I want to leave this world in peace, to know what happened or why they shot you? The mistaken identity, or were you going to your car since you died right there by it, were you leaving? Was it just that these guys were angry with the fights that went on, and you were standing in their way? What was it?
I need to know for my peace of mind, there is no such thing as closure for us. Closure means closing your life, the book cover as if you didn't live, and my son you lived
I find myself with so much anger and agony in our lives, yet it is not the way to live. We can't even get justice. I envy the people that have had justice. I don't know if we will ever see it.
Christopher as you know we will always feel the loss in our hearts and life since you have left. Your Dad misses you so very much with the talks you use to have, and the visits outside as he was out there smoking his cigar and you'd come out to visit with him.
We also met Gracie, she is such a pretty girl, and she too, misses and remembers you. She seemed so nice. Treated us with so much respect.
Engraved in our hearts forever, till we meet again, We look forward to that day as it will be a happy one. To see you and your grandparents and aunt Lucy, what a joy that will be.  Forever Dad & Mom.
PLACE YOUR MOUSE OVER THIS PICTURE
In order for our family to keep from having "stalkers" for lack of better word, placing childish remarks on our guestbook.  We first ask you email your comments I will then place them on the guestbook.  Sorry for the inconvience, but some people use this for their own gain and we choose to keep it as a loving memorial .
On Sept 12, 1999 Christopher was murdered by a coward. To this day that coward runs free, our family still does not know why he was murdered. Christopher was at a house party of about 100+ kids and no one has or will come forward to give our family the answers we deserve.